Some time I go into deep thoughts and remember Almighty. My thinking touches wide-range of problematics topics. And very often I fell myself disappointed. The old memory lane and day-to-day happenings, exactly, compels me think about the sufferings of people like me in the entire globe. Just stranges thoughts come up in my mind ! And think myself what should be the course correction. Suddenly, I remember the versions of Yuddhishthir and Yakhs when the former had gone to rescue his other Pandava brothers, who could not reply Yaksh 's set of questions and wanted to take water forcibly from the lake to mitigate their thirst-and subsequently all of them died. Lastly Yuddhishthir had come and found his brothers dead-Yaksh asked him the same set of questions from Yuddhishthir . Yuddhisthir replied all questions satisfactorily and in course of reply of the last question, he said that there are differences of opinions among sages, saints, and also in scriptures like Vedas, Puranas etc about what is good and bad "acharan" , mentioned in the last question-then one must follow path of the elderly scholars and pundits and also great personalities(whatever they say and do). Yaksh became happy with the scholarly replies of his questions by Yuddhisthir and his dead brothers were given life and they all took water from the lake to satisfy their thirst!
I belong to a nationalist family. And I always believed in hard work (karm). I did that during my active journalism service career of over 36 years and my hard work used to be appreciated. But when the time of dividends or benefits came, I remained isolated. What ever I got in my career were by dint of hard labour.Even after that it did not shake my faith in Bhagwad Geeta, which says karm is supreme! And I am leading my retired life by reading, writing and praying to Almighty of all faiths. I have great respect, regards in Swami Ramkrishna Paramhans philosophy of religions and spiritualism like "bhakti". Ramkrishna Paramhans had practiced all religions and had said that all religions go to same end and men get salvation without any discrimination of caste, creates, faith in all religions.
But I am not succeeding in full concentrations . Stray thoughts come in my mind and "maan", which it is said moves in speed more than anythings.I feel this is great lapses in me. However, gradually or some time I succeed in concentration and find Almighty helping me in dire need and consequences. I try to remember Almighty always and keep in my mind to pray the almighty always and every time. I advise my near and dear to have faith in Almighty-it will look after you. Of course death and life is not even in the hands of Almighty! The Almighty becomes faiths in death and life-but some time when I see "anhoni honi ho gaya:"-than I feel the Almighty has control over everything.
I seriously think only two great saints--Swami Ramkrishna Paramhansh and Shirdi ke Saidewa, born in two different regions-east and west respectively in 19th century have shown the path of salvation. And both died of dreaded cancer while serving the men kind and enlightening the people of all religions presence of Almighty everywhere, everybody etc.Perhaps they died early and of serious ailments because they had taken sorrow and pains of people to cure them and have more life spans!
Both religious giants of 19th century impressed me enough and my faith in Almighty and all religions was deep rooted. More over I remember the old reminiscences of my life and I become thankful to Almighty that IT has great blessings on me and I am carrying. Such thoughts also reverates my mind when I look back and find that people of the world are more and more in distress and sufferings!
Krishna Kumar Singh
- Krishna Kumar Singh, also known among friend circles KK and among close relative Krishna; Matriculation from Mithila High School Balour, Darbhanga in 1959, Graduated in Political Science Honours from C M College, Darbhanga, Bihar University in 1963; Joined post-graduate in Political Science the same year but dropped; joined Naxal movement under Charu Mazumdar, Kanu Sanyal, Satya Narayan Singh and Umadhar Singh in between but circumstances compelled to join literary work, clerk, proof readers etc in different publishing houses for livelihood; Finally joined journalism as career in different English newspapers and before my retirement from active journalism, I worked in The Times of India for about 19 years and retired as Chief Reporter a few years back; continuing in journalism-reading more and more, writing more and more and praying to Almighty more and more-currently writing for different national English and Hindi dailies and magazines..